Wednesday 13 April 2011

Forgiveness

well, This week started out amazing and it just keeps getting better, HOWEVER, God Spoke early this week of something that I KNOW in my heart needs to be done so I will step out in Blind faith and do it.  At PWOC on monday night I got a Vision Of an estranged friend and I was on her door step speaking to her.  I prayed that is God really wanted me to go to her that he would tell me exactly what to say.  that night I had a dream and I heard every word I was supposed to say.  I am to ask for forgiveness for all of the hurt I inflicted in my early walk with Christ.  (I didnt know how to appropriately remove myself form certain situations so, I just rudely and hurtfully pushed her out of my life.)  I think at the time I was one of VERY FEW Christians in her life so for her to see such a poor display of actions by a christian  must have messed with her view of WHO God is.  I hope I dont sound vein while I am writing this, its just an honest assessment of what happened on my end and how I feel.  anyhow God showed me in this vision that I am to ask for forgiveness, NOT say I am sorry, and as I thought about this it made me feel even more nervous to approach her and for no other reason that I didnt want my ego to be hurt by her saying "no"  or her freaking out on me.  anyways in my vision God also showed me reading this to her:


God Loves you
God already knows you intimately
God Loves you
God wants you to talk to him
God Loves you
God created you in his image
God Loves you
You were made perfectly by Gods hands
God Loves you
God wants to overflow you with Love and joy
God Loves you
God wants a relationship with you
God Loves you
God has put you here for a reason
God Loves you
God wants to comfort you in your times of trial and hurt
God Loves you
God wants to fill you up with LOVE
God Loves you
God wants to help you grow
God Loves you
God wants to help you up when you fall, and WE ALL FALL
God Loves you
God wants to give you immeasurable peace
God Loves you
God wants you to let go
God Loves you
God wants you to come to him
God Loves you
God wants you to surrender
God Loves you
God wants you to come to him like a child, we are ALL his children
God Loves you
God wants to bless you
God Loves you
God wants to forgive you
God Loves you
God wants to heal your hurts
God Loves you
God wants you to open up
God LOVES YOU!

I know that God has this in the bag however, I cant help but feel terrified to face her and ask for forgiveness and what if she says no?  then what?  do I still read the above mentioned message?  so many things running through my mind but I WILL do this task that God has asked of me.   even if I do end up being "that crazy person who came to my house and read me a God poem"  I am putting my pride and my Ego aside and stepping out in BLIND faith and just trusting that God has all my steps mapped out.  I am thankful for the opportunity to ask for forgiveness and clear the air.  God is amazing in how he works in and through us.  I will keep you all posted as events unfold!

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